Adee. That's all.

somewhere beyond the sea

adee — Sat, 28 Jan 2012 10:58:25 +0000

one of the shortest yet greatest friendship i’ve ever had. i’ll see you soon my murtabaka.

are we there yet?

adee — Mon, 02 Jan 2012 19:43:44 +0000

look where we are now. this is good.

goodnight, goodbye and go.

adee — Sat, 31 Dec 2011 18:38:51 +0000

this happens every year. i’m currently fantasizing / romanticizing the things that could happen this 2012. planning ahead the list of imaginary friends and lovers i could have in my head. and i actually found one – in the kitchen. her name’s isa.

let’s welcome all the smiles and laughter that will chase all men away.

Come pick me up

adee — Thu, 22 Dec 2011 16:58:19 +0000

i always screw things up. but this is probably the biggest one. i wanted you to be there. i needed you for god’s sake.

oh,well.

man it’s painful.

now now.

adee — Wed, 14 Dec 2011 15:20:03 +0000

let’s not.

well that sucks

adee — Wed, 07 Dec 2011 19:39:52 +0000

i don’t know what i’m doing with my life anymore. i need a trip to south africa.

again it stopped

adee — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 19:03:52 +0000

life is a tragic comedy. i have come to realize that it takes more than all of these shit that I’m learning in school to make me an adult or whatever you call it. I don’t know about you but I don’t mind feeding elephants and cleaning their asses every single day of my life than having generalized production sermons forced down your throat then proceed to vomiting it out in a form of report or purposeless PowerPoint that will never see the light of the day in an investor’s meeting room.

I’ve wasted all of my dad’s hard-earned money. There I said it.

always ashamed

adee — Tue, 01 Nov 2011 15:10:56 +0000

i can never be specific and clear when it comes to this. but all you need to know is i used to feel like i need to shit whenever it happens. now i feel nauseous. i’ll have a lifetime of diarrhea when i finally settle down with someone. i’m pretty sure.

I DON’T LIKE THIS FEELING.

and it doesn’t help that this particular scene keeps popping up in my head these past days.

if you think i’m the javier bardem in this, you’re so wrong. surprisingly the naive, stupid and worked up rebecca hall is me, right there.

call me crazy. i’m actually just tired.

adee — Sun, 30 Oct 2011 17:28:41 +0000

this is the closest horoscope reading i have ever gotten from the app i downloaded on my bb and all i can say right now is – great. at least there’s one that’s close enough to what i’m going through.

“you would have no trouble showing your passion for a business venture or something else that offers a tangible gain of some kind. But when it comes to showing your deeper emotions about a person in your life, you may find it difficult. you don’t like being vulnerable, Gemini. but allowing yourself to get in touch with your deepest feelings more often, and then being brave enough to express those feelings will open up a whole new dimension in your life.”

the last few lines were about being cuddly as a teddy bear for this Halloween. i refuse to be associated to that.

people always say that one will inevitably grow weaker for love. that’s not entirely true. this time round i don’t feel weaker or stronger. i just feel better with the presence. it would be nice if all of these are mutual but as usual, i have zero expectation whatsoever. it’s not that it’s tiring. they just require too much space that’s all. of course i’ve hopes. but all of it die off the very next morning.

that’s encouraging right?

i’m hoping this film (Away From Her) will do wonders to my grouchy self today. might even help with the script. things are not going well in that area also.

UGLY SOAB

adee — Sat, 22 Oct 2011 02:07:28 +0000

This week’s been hell. I’m in the 3rd viewing of a mere 10-mins video with an ugly bitch from hell. So mad I will crush her face if she says anything more.

Just some thoughts for future bosses who would like to hire a videographer + editor for such a short period notice, short period service and fcking rip-off payment : Please. Be nice. At least understand that you’re not paying much, you don’t get much. And stop having the idea that I can shit miracle edit changes out of my ass in 2 hours. You’re only gg to cost yourself haters who will be waiting at your door to kill you.

I’ve never been more angry in my life. I need my mum.